Tuesday, January 27, 2009

[Can I skip the Back] to the Future?

It's looking like Avelyn might be going to live with Kevin during the week.  I have mixed feelings about this.  Jennifer thinks yes, this is the best decision for all of us.  The childcare facility she would attend is better, cheaper, constant and faith based.  I will get more work done and be able to focus on school, something I cannot do now.   

The Momma in me thinks NO!  Don't take my baby from me!  You donated some sperm but I did all the hard work, she's miiiiiiiine!  I will most definitely die a painful agonizing death if she is removed from my immediate vicinity!

I don't know what to think.  If it happens (and we'll know by end of this week) I will probably flip flop back and forth each day she is gone from being a productive, busy student to a woe-be-gone forlorn mess of Kleenex and snot.  I will probably sink into a great depression, the depths of which have only been portrayed on All My Children or One Life to Live.  Maybe I'll even develop D.I.D. or confront my evil twin (who is totally hot, in shape and sexy).  

Of course, I'll also have time to attend class and read my assignments before 9 pm at night.  Heck, I might even learn something that will one day be used to, you know, nurse people back to health.

So maybe it wouldn't be so bad.  Right?

And it would only be until I graduate (May 8, 2009 at 7:00 pm... send money).  

I just can't imagine not waking up to this face, or this face, or this face. Every. Single. Day.


  1. Oh Jennifer, I am so, so, so sorry that you are having to make a decision like this. I don't know which would be better or worse for you so I'm just gonna pray that you, Kevin AND Avelyn can handle whatever comes.
    At least the end is in sight, right?

  2. Ohhhh that is a toughie...I can't imagine not waking up to that sweet, sweet face, then again I can't imagine trying to finish nursing school with a 9 month old and no help from daddy!! You need to do what's right for you AND Avelyn.

  3. Well with the new childcare facility you'll be able to hop online and watch her terrorize the other children, so that'll be nice. Plus the curriculum says they start learning karate at 13 months as well. She'll be able to chop you in the face and roundhouse kick me in the nether regions in no time. I'm serious. It says they learn karate.


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